Letter to Papa

My Dear Papa,

Next Friday, it will be a month since you went away from our lives, to another world where we cannot reach you. Cant hear you, cant touch you, cant see you, cant ask you how you are.

Nothing much seems to have changed since you departed. I still wake up every morning, do my daily chores, dress up and come to office. I am involved in my work whole day, taking and giving directions, holding meetings, chatting, mailing and evening comes. I again go home, play with Aryu, prepare dinner, eat and sleep. The whole day is just like what it used to be.

But you know papa, when I pick up the phone to call up at home, I realize that I will never again hear your voice on the phone. Thats when I realize that things have changed.

When Aryu does his little tricks and I recall how happy you used to be to hear them, I realize that I will never be able to tell you again what he does.

When I recently won an award in the company, I realized I will never hear your happy voice again which used to say, ‘After all your are my daughter’.

When I am low and upset because of the way life is going on, I realize I will never again hear your motivating words that could lift my mood anytime.

As I am writing these words, I know you are not listening to me. You are far far away. You are gone and you have gone for good this time.

These and such hundreds of moments come and go everyday when there is a split second that brings forth the shocking reality of your absence from my life.

I just hope that wherever you are, you are free from the misery and pain that you had to suffer from in the last few years of your life.

I love you papa and I will always strive to be a good human being that you wanted me to be. I will be strong for Mom and I will always take care of her.

Missing you dearly.

Your loving daughter.